post-graduation!

ok, first up. i apologize for such an emotional post before this.
something got caught up, and i cant tell how sad i was. WAS ok.

now, im on cloud 7. i cant put myself in cloud 9 because im just totally tired! knackered.
the procession of convocation was definitely one of the best defining moment in my life indeed!
its the first time ever i wore a suit more than 9 hours long, it was the very first time i wore a robe, and it was definitely a very first time for me to be able to walk CALMLY during the scroll collection.

thank you for the best wishes, the flowers, the card, the chocolates, the cupcakes, the bag, the bear, the rose, the smiles ive got during the whole convocation process. thank you thank you.

but most importantly, THANK YOU, for remembering me after all. =)

alhamdulillah...

Mohd Shafiq Bin Salleh

Bachelor of Business Administration (Hons.) Marketing with Multimedia

1st class honour (3.88)

Book Award recipient

Class of 2010

the night before graduation

i will be honest here.
i think i may be at fault for starting something trivial like that. i shouldn't have done it and i regretted it.
i am feeling really anxious, for tomorrow is my graduation. so i logged on to facebook, to keep it down. n i read a girl's status in facebook, and the reply afterwards. it knocked on my head heavily.

i am tired of portraying nice image. i want to be able to say no. i want to be able to say to your face, "i dont like you" instead of talking behind you. this, i am ashamed of.

so tonight, instead of being angry, or sad, i feel more composed. not dat anxious anymore. thank you for the status. at first i thought of facing you and hear what you want to say about me, but then again, i shouldn't. everyone is entitled to whatever opinion they have.

as for me, maybe i should just keep it low. and keep it to myself.

i do think whatever happened lately was some form of retribution, and ive accepted most of them and trying to accept a few of them as well.

thank you my friends, those who really stick through thicks and thins throughout my life in university. thank you, i cannot say nor express myself well. thank you. just thank you.

a quicky. really.

oh twitter. one minute you're acting up with your stupid overflowing tweets, the next minute, you do not allow the users to use their liberties in posting updates! you are such despicable site, but i still use you. why? because you enclave us to write in 140 letters; not more, so that we can think before we post anything. responsibility , that is.

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i had a post i would like to paste on my blog, but i stall it around for a while.
i need some time before i can be sure about it.
again, blogging is fun because you can be yourself, but not without responsibility.

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convocation is creeping up! its saturday, and i have planned myself.
after this - ironing the shirt (vanity, i do it so early)
monday night - kinohimitsu padding on my foot
tuesday - kinohimitsu collagen prune drink (for the beauty effect wtf,i have no high hope for it but since its free, might as well use it right?)
wednesday - liberty finesse.
thursday - zinc mask. (its really is calming i tell you)
friday - kinohimitsu padding again (to detox another wtf moment hahaha)

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its 4am and i will wake myself up at 9am to prep myself. planning of going to mmu and then rush off to batu caves to pick my robe and some of my friends' robes along the way.

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i dont expect some kind of payment from those i've helped, but i expect it from Allah. =)
He who knows best, He who knows that sincerity is a powerful tool to make the world (or at the very least, the environment around me) a better place to live. =)

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ok i cheated on the title above. this is not really a quicky. hahaha. more like a place where i can vent much more, since my twitter account is acting up. bloody hell.
tata!

i love you pink. haha

I have no idea what to blog about, because this past month I have been doing NOTHING but sleeping and keeping myself in my room.

Lifeless, u say? Tell me about it. I somehow abandon this blog as well. Poor you, miss blog. Tsktsk.

Not because I am lazy or anything, its just that its been a pretty daunting and emotionally draining posts I’ve been giving out. And that is just not good. This is my 3rd blog, and I happen want to make it less…emo? Hahahaha. So I am trying to sort out my plan, little by little. Hurdles? Oh yes.

Much haven’t changed however. Just I am beginning to see things more clearly now (since all the clogs started to dissipate.

But, not to blog means my English has become somehow RUSTY. I mean serious shit rusty. You see, I am quite particular about grammar and stuff, and trust me, till now I don’t really master English grammar. But I do notice this; I keep on deleting my comments on facebook, my tweets on twitter, plainly on grammatical error. Haiyo this is big problem dude! (its not that I’ve never deleted my comments/tweets before this, it was just less rampant!)

So now, I am trying to blog using proper grammar. Help me guys. You see, I am avid fan of east asian culture, hence I studied their languages. Mandarin, Korean and Japanese. Truth be told, I’ve forgotten some of the words I learn. I just finished studying, and Japanese level 2 was among the last papers I took, but I already forgot half of the things I learn. That. Is. BAD.

So lets improve together shall we? I mean, when we’re working out there in the world, languages are the easier way to understand others, apart from culture. So need to practice and practice and practice!

Ps: hehehe…I don’t know about other people, but I always got mixed up between using Korean and japanese languages. Once, I accidently said anyonghaseyo instead of konnichiwa to our japanese lecturer. =P how bout mandarin u may ask? I completely forgot it. I am bad huh?

ARGH! my ipod touch screen film!

As I had promised before, that I will blog about it once I’ve settled it all, so here we go.

Actually, I got a job with D**. It is a good company indeed, with great ramifications to boast about. Excellent career development, so they say. Unfortunately, due to the conflicting interest between me, them and my sponsor, I had to turn D** down.

So, right now, I am basically doing nothing at home (read=MALAS). It is definitely not enriching totally. And certainly its not helping either when you have different opinion with your parents, whereby I end up being the losing point..

What I do then nowadays? Apart from being total bedridden person (im not sick but I feel sick, so I sleep like an owl) I went for other interviews that I can grab on. Mostly quite ok, but to avoid future inconveniences like the ones I had experienced, I chose to be honest and tell them. I am a scholar.

To be frank, after it all happened, I started to become a bit reclusive person indeed. I don’t talk that much (sometimes I don’t even talk) at home. I seem to be less enthusiastic in searching for jobs. I don’t know. Maybe I am the type of person that do not let things go that easily.

But my coming graduation ceremony brouhaha actually provides some entertainment! Haha. Hopefully I can pick the right picture to put on the screen. Oh plus, I was thinking of wearing green shirt on that day, but perhaps I will change my plan, seems that green doesn’t suit me anymore! Haha. Lame excuse. No lah, I just feel that its about time I chose different colours. Its been three damn years, I chose to like green, why not this year, I chose to like, pink? Maybe not!

Oh did I bore you about my plight? Heh..this I my blog anyway! Hahahaha. But I hope this will serve as lessons to those people in the same position as me, think twice before you accept anything. You’ll end up having more headache instead of banishing one!

Ps: I stupidly thought that I am good enough to change the protective film on my Itouch. I ended up having such a messy sticker instead! So much for being economical (it costs me RM6.90, from Carrefour). Tomorrow, or rather today, I have to go to Lowyatt and fix it up. I need MOOLAHHHHH~~~~