shit you, shakeanasslicker.

haha, title takmo brani mati, no?

its been long since i last post something on this blog. why? well, i have a tumblr so to say.

secondly, am damn tired these days. darn you work! all my normalcy rates of not doing anything seem to falter lately.

its a blessing from Allah when i was down with bad food poisoning. food poisoning shafiq? lets just say.. its a case of painkiller-too-strong, empty stomach, full cookie chochie sans franscisco, and emo-ness.

now where the hell this emo-ness come? hurm.. i promised i'd blog more about it, so here it goes. kalau takmo baca sila blah sebab this gonna hurt pretty badly i guess.

it started with me getting my annoyance bottled up. i hated backstabbers, and somehow i love people who just being cool, cheerful lad. so to speak lah kan. what they say they are usually ARE NOT them. tettt.

should've known better to expect less and be on vigilante mode more. -.- and i ended up being sort of an outcast, because i refuse to join any clique or grouping clise. trust me my dear friends, if you are, you'll just be crushed by the efervesence of stupidity of gossipers. who? you'll soon find out.

but all in all, now i sort of accepted it. because i jsut want to be friends with everybody, so pleasing people other than myself seems to be the norm here. and comes the shit you, shakeanasslicker.

just read your facebook comment. wow, nice. pegi mati boleh? sangat double-faced. i just cant stand people who want them to stand with you, but end up leaving you behind when you're in deep slump. what's more, they bullshit bout you behind your back. so not cool. semangat setiakawan takde, kan? puhlease.

even if it is just a joke, but i just cant accept it. ive seen the pattern in your page and let me just say this; i cant believe im such a stepping stone, always dumb and ready to be mocked by you and your army. good job. shit you.

sekian. moga anda sedar, bahawasanya...hidup ini ada karma. itu sajelah.

one month: the good, the bad, the ugly

one month had passed for my times in my workplace.

the good
learning! Its something that i looked forward to the most before this. although the spirit went downhill like reverse line in statistics, i still love it. learning finance is amazing, i mean with numbers...you will be able to tell a lot about the company. and i majored in marketing, so it gives a good balance. marketing is good because i can learn something about human (later more on it), but numbers. wow. just wow, i love it. [although to be fair, there's this two topics i cant really grasp which are the securities and derivatives, especially the latter].

the bad
traffic. i hate it with my upmost heart and soul. and i mean it. seriously i mean it. i had once been late for work for 30 mins (my official office hour is 8am), and simply because of jam. i was stucked in damn mrr2 for 1 hour, then another 30 mins along jalan ampang. mmg bloody hell mary.

the ugly
the claws started to show up, and its not just some of claws, but the entirety of it. and frankly...i hate it. can we start respecting each other, and stop being judgemental? nuff said.

new toy :)

is this! blacberry 9700

ive been wanting this phone since early march i think. reasons?

1) ive grown tired of my samsung f480. its tiring to type using a full touchscreen.

2)ella use bb 8520 and it sort of gives me the early kickstart of bb loveeee. :P (sangat lah wutever).

last saturday was my convocation. n frankly, i was fussing to my parents i wanted a gift (gile gedix kan???hahaha). after god-help-me 5 hours of torturous sitting in the hall, we finished the procession. i tried to call my parents, snap a pic or two (yea rite), then bid goodbye. but i cant got thru them! i tried for 1 hour, in between i met taufik and dyana and a few other friends, i was about to slammed the phone out of frustration (yea temper...not good!muhasabah diri)... then only i can get through. itupun tak dapat call maxis, call celcom my bro punye number.

was thinking of changing it AFTER i got a job (first salary to buy a phone, such a lame objective). then somehow, on tuesday, dad gave me money. "kata nak hadiah kan?" on cloud nine beteh! then i already planned on buying it later in august. suddenly...

my samsung dropped a call on thursday. not good. and during one interview (shall blog bout it later), the exec who handled us told one girl "saya tak dpt call awak. phone prob ke? susahlaa kalau tak on phone ye. kami kena susun jadual betul2 ye". the night b4 i was thinking about buying it after the interview, but those words sort of cemented the decision making. haha.

traded my samsung (rm1.6k phone jadi rm300 je, worthless edi), took the blackberry, used the money dad gave, and added rm100 for it. i was happy, the salesman was happy, we all were.

so far, it works great. i love the BIS service, although pricey at rm2.50 per day. but now i close the data connection of my phone, for fear of using more money than i should (im not working yet). insyaAllah, God's willing, will use data plan by next month or so. IF i got selected for the programme.

one of the greatest gift is the gift of freedom. if i got selected, i will be able to exercise freedom of finance. haha. and make my parents happy. then i am happy. i can just pray now, because its already the final stage. amin

btw, im down with fever. adoii. and it was during the day of interview. i tried to give my best impression on dat day. hope dat works. :)

off to some food. toodles.

post-graduation!

ok, first up. i apologize for such an emotional post before this.
something got caught up, and i cant tell how sad i was. WAS ok.

now, im on cloud 7. i cant put myself in cloud 9 because im just totally tired! knackered.
the procession of convocation was definitely one of the best defining moment in my life indeed!
its the first time ever i wore a suit more than 9 hours long, it was the very first time i wore a robe, and it was definitely a very first time for me to be able to walk CALMLY during the scroll collection.

thank you for the best wishes, the flowers, the card, the chocolates, the cupcakes, the bag, the bear, the rose, the smiles ive got during the whole convocation process. thank you thank you.

but most importantly, THANK YOU, for remembering me after all. =)

alhamdulillah...

Mohd Shafiq Bin Salleh

Bachelor of Business Administration (Hons.) Marketing with Multimedia

1st class honour (3.88)

Book Award recipient

Class of 2010

the night before graduation

i will be honest here.
i think i may be at fault for starting something trivial like that. i shouldn't have done it and i regretted it.
i am feeling really anxious, for tomorrow is my graduation. so i logged on to facebook, to keep it down. n i read a girl's status in facebook, and the reply afterwards. it knocked on my head heavily.

i am tired of portraying nice image. i want to be able to say no. i want to be able to say to your face, "i dont like you" instead of talking behind you. this, i am ashamed of.

so tonight, instead of being angry, or sad, i feel more composed. not dat anxious anymore. thank you for the status. at first i thought of facing you and hear what you want to say about me, but then again, i shouldn't. everyone is entitled to whatever opinion they have.

as for me, maybe i should just keep it low. and keep it to myself.

i do think whatever happened lately was some form of retribution, and ive accepted most of them and trying to accept a few of them as well.

thank you my friends, those who really stick through thicks and thins throughout my life in university. thank you, i cannot say nor express myself well. thank you. just thank you.

a quicky. really.

oh twitter. one minute you're acting up with your stupid overflowing tweets, the next minute, you do not allow the users to use their liberties in posting updates! you are such despicable site, but i still use you. why? because you enclave us to write in 140 letters; not more, so that we can think before we post anything. responsibility , that is.

*

i had a post i would like to paste on my blog, but i stall it around for a while.
i need some time before i can be sure about it.
again, blogging is fun because you can be yourself, but not without responsibility.

*

convocation is creeping up! its saturday, and i have planned myself.
after this - ironing the shirt (vanity, i do it so early)
monday night - kinohimitsu padding on my foot
tuesday - kinohimitsu collagen prune drink (for the beauty effect wtf,i have no high hope for it but since its free, might as well use it right?)
wednesday - liberty finesse.
thursday - zinc mask. (its really is calming i tell you)
friday - kinohimitsu padding again (to detox another wtf moment hahaha)

*

its 4am and i will wake myself up at 9am to prep myself. planning of going to mmu and then rush off to batu caves to pick my robe and some of my friends' robes along the way.

*

i dont expect some kind of payment from those i've helped, but i expect it from Allah. =)
He who knows best, He who knows that sincerity is a powerful tool to make the world (or at the very least, the environment around me) a better place to live. =)

*

ok i cheated on the title above. this is not really a quicky. hahaha. more like a place where i can vent much more, since my twitter account is acting up. bloody hell.
tata!

i love you pink. haha

I have no idea what to blog about, because this past month I have been doing NOTHING but sleeping and keeping myself in my room.

Lifeless, u say? Tell me about it. I somehow abandon this blog as well. Poor you, miss blog. Tsktsk.

Not because I am lazy or anything, its just that its been a pretty daunting and emotionally draining posts I’ve been giving out. And that is just not good. This is my 3rd blog, and I happen want to make it less…emo? Hahahaha. So I am trying to sort out my plan, little by little. Hurdles? Oh yes.

Much haven’t changed however. Just I am beginning to see things more clearly now (since all the clogs started to dissipate.

But, not to blog means my English has become somehow RUSTY. I mean serious shit rusty. You see, I am quite particular about grammar and stuff, and trust me, till now I don’t really master English grammar. But I do notice this; I keep on deleting my comments on facebook, my tweets on twitter, plainly on grammatical error. Haiyo this is big problem dude! (its not that I’ve never deleted my comments/tweets before this, it was just less rampant!)

So now, I am trying to blog using proper grammar. Help me guys. You see, I am avid fan of east asian culture, hence I studied their languages. Mandarin, Korean and Japanese. Truth be told, I’ve forgotten some of the words I learn. I just finished studying, and Japanese level 2 was among the last papers I took, but I already forgot half of the things I learn. That. Is. BAD.

So lets improve together shall we? I mean, when we’re working out there in the world, languages are the easier way to understand others, apart from culture. So need to practice and practice and practice!

Ps: hehehe…I don’t know about other people, but I always got mixed up between using Korean and japanese languages. Once, I accidently said anyonghaseyo instead of konnichiwa to our japanese lecturer. =P how bout mandarin u may ask? I completely forgot it. I am bad huh?

ARGH! my ipod touch screen film!

As I had promised before, that I will blog about it once I’ve settled it all, so here we go.

Actually, I got a job with D**. It is a good company indeed, with great ramifications to boast about. Excellent career development, so they say. Unfortunately, due to the conflicting interest between me, them and my sponsor, I had to turn D** down.

So, right now, I am basically doing nothing at home (read=MALAS). It is definitely not enriching totally. And certainly its not helping either when you have different opinion with your parents, whereby I end up being the losing point..

What I do then nowadays? Apart from being total bedridden person (im not sick but I feel sick, so I sleep like an owl) I went for other interviews that I can grab on. Mostly quite ok, but to avoid future inconveniences like the ones I had experienced, I chose to be honest and tell them. I am a scholar.

To be frank, after it all happened, I started to become a bit reclusive person indeed. I don’t talk that much (sometimes I don’t even talk) at home. I seem to be less enthusiastic in searching for jobs. I don’t know. Maybe I am the type of person that do not let things go that easily.

But my coming graduation ceremony brouhaha actually provides some entertainment! Haha. Hopefully I can pick the right picture to put on the screen. Oh plus, I was thinking of wearing green shirt on that day, but perhaps I will change my plan, seems that green doesn’t suit me anymore! Haha. Lame excuse. No lah, I just feel that its about time I chose different colours. Its been three damn years, I chose to like green, why not this year, I chose to like, pink? Maybe not!

Oh did I bore you about my plight? Heh..this I my blog anyway! Hahahaha. But I hope this will serve as lessons to those people in the same position as me, think twice before you accept anything. You’ll end up having more headache instead of banishing one!

Ps: I stupidly thought that I am good enough to change the protective film on my Itouch. I ended up having such a messy sticker instead! So much for being economical (it costs me RM6.90, from Carrefour). Tomorrow, or rather today, I have to go to Lowyatt and fix it up. I need MOOLAHHHHH~~~~

i remembered what i promised before!

suddenly, i remembered something...

it was a video, someone recorded it. of me, speaking bout what i wanted to do in the future.

i totally forgot about it!

i shall find the video again. it left an imprint in myself...although i will never be able to fulfill that dream, i know somehow it works out the best for me now.

i am more happy now. thank you Allah for reminding me of the existence of it.

=)

now, how and where can i find the video again? its in my old phone i guess...

random.

ok, tonite i feel a bit out of place. angry, sad, n bruhaha wutever. dis is weird, cuz basically, nothing really made me angry! hum? mayb i didnt get the chance to eat mee bandung, so my stomach caused my brain to be upset? oh plus my face seems to b worse day after day. douchebaggggg!

so..to keep my sanity. i blog. (i am insane tonite i know)

first up, is high school friendssss. its been hella long time i havent go out wit them, wuts more wif taufik new-found friends. hum. miss those days where we'll just go out w/o thinking. but naah. we're grown ups. owh adian, where the hell is she nowadays? last time i heard her sistah is engaging, but she seemed not eager to break it to all of us. i knew it from fatin! and kamilah was shocked, to say the least. ah well, grown ups. how bout fatin and kamilah? they're in aussie..and they wont be back till november. haishhhh... dis is boring. every1 seems so occupied wit their lives rite now. as for me, im stuck at home doing nothing cuz basically... i dont have money to go anywhere! wehee~ oh plus miss flu and incik cough love me so much, they cant let me go! douchebag.

second up, is resulttssss. hurm, waiting is no fun indeed. it kills, to say the least. why results, instead of result? well...im waiting for more than one result. final exam result (of course), interview result . i calculated that exam result will be out between dis week or next week. am hopeful for this week, (the earlier the better cuz anticipation really kills), but dats just miracle thinking. realist thinking will be next week, earlier of the week. mayb wednesday.

third up, is foodssss. actually, grammar-wise, its food. but heck takpelaa. well, ive been eating nonstop. but i checked my weight, wallah! its 56.7kgs! wehee! love? yeas. mayb cuz im having flu or something, the food is used up to build new cells in my body. (actually, being sick reduces your lifespan. a slight changes in ur body temperature causes certain cells to die, so ur body have to produce new ones. and as u get older, the production of new cells deteroriate. so the more u get sick, the more times ur body produce new cells, the shorter ur life span. i read sumwhere bout it).

fourth up, is sleep. hum dis is kinda funneh. during exam week, my eyes cant stay longer after 3am. but now...both eyes can stay up to 7am then sleep. hehe. not good indeed.

nuff said.

trying to get used to this new template.

i still feel black template fits me, but then again, i got head cramped and eyes blurred whenever i finished reading my own post. so better than! to get a new template, which doesnt require u to scrutinize ur eyes like the size of snake's eyes or something.

tehehe. (kinda ayu plak dis template).

friday, evening.

sometimes i wish u would understand that, as a human, i make mistakes. but it seems you cant. instead i got greeted by ignorance; it made me sick.

i tolerated, and tried being nice, but to no avail. picking on something that isnt supposed to be picked just ticked me off. and it blew. yes, i felt bad, but at the same time, i felt that somehow, you deserved it. i know i shouldnt be saying or even thinking about it, but i cant help my small human mind. i hope you will open your eyes, because i am SICK of it. stand by me, rather than turning your back on me.

please make it easier.

post tiada kaitan. nuff said.

finale....and the waiting begins.

current mood : nostalgic, but happy
current song : miley cyrus (deary rummate playing it rite now)

ya Allah... finally. i am done. thank you Allah. i managed through the ups and downs of years in mmu. i will definitely remember d downs, since im such a pessimistic person, but now...i think i would like to reflect on the ups. be happy shafiq! rather than thinking bout sadness. hahaha.

my last paper, japanese for business communication 2, was tough. seriously. i was practically focused on the paper w/o looking at other people. fuhhh. and when the head of invigilator said "time's up", i was practically checking my answer of mcqs. and i made a mistake; i was such in a hurry, i failed to pay attention bout tying the answer sheet. mmg SHIT kan? such a simple task to not focus on! i was, and still is, worry whether i tied the paper tightly or not. a lot of thoughts came through my mind, but then, it had happened. wut i can do rite now is to PRAY, bertawakal, and ask for Allah's sooth and guidance.

"ya Allah, ak tahu ak mmg cepat lalai. suka buat benda bukan2, suka fikir terlalu dalam, suka susahkan mak ayah, terlalu banyak meminta dari memberi, suka fikir negatif dari positif, tetapi, permudahkanlah ak untuk grad, permudahkanlah jalanku, makbulkanlah doaku supaya ak dapat grad pada masanya; 31 julai 2010. bukan sahaja utk diriku, utk mak dan ayah yg byk berkorban, utk islam yg sebenar. peliharalah diriku dari azabmu, kesusahanmu, dan limpahilah rezekimu dan rahmatmu kepadaku, keluargaku, rakan2ku, dunia dan akhirat. amin"

thanks to my friends; ellany amir, add athirah, dody zulkifli, d dyana. the four of you seriously changed my life, giving me insights i never thoughts of before. mayb u will feel its insignificant actions, but i feel its big enough. thank you very much. =)

and now, the waiting begins. the waiting for the very final result. Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segalanya. lancarkanlah segalanya, supaya ak dapat grad 31 july 2010. amin.

lost opportunity

i dont get it really.

i lost four opportunities to go for an interview due to my status of sponsored students.

even companies under my sponsor don't want to take the chance of hiring me as their employee!

im not asking for too much, i just want to know whether my sponsor will hire me or not. that's all. waiting for 3 months definitely doesnt seem short, what's more when u're practically not making money.

n dis morning, again, i lost the opportunity.

"tue yg susah tue dik. kami penah amik sponsored students, last2 kami kena lepaskan eventho kami anak syarikat XXXX"

"camnilah, adik tanya XXXX, samada boleh tak kerja dgn kami anak syarikat. kalau adik masih interested, call lahkami balik"

adei. this is indeed demotivating. bt what can i do? my dad said just wait for my result to come out then if i want to let all hell break loose, then be it. but then again, i felt i lost some opportunities. but then again, i cant be too angry, cuz im enjoying free education, plus allowance to boot! dilemma.

double post!

wow, im in the mood of blogging!

essay much? ahaaa.

updates!
>>> in 3 weeks time, everything will wrap up, n im done wif mmu! yes! harap tiada aral melintang, AMIN!
>>> currently addicted to justin bieber - baby (i know, stupid song), thsk - wasurenaide (thanks Dody dareena!), snsd - echo (sweet, but not too sugary).
>>> just cut my hair, since d celcius count in malaysia will not drop anytime soon. keep it short, the wind can breeze easily. plus preparing for anything in near future
>>> my spec power reached 300. yeay? wak lu. hell ok! i cant even read subtitles w/o glasses nowadays. @@
>>> my allergic reaction had subsided; no longer i scrathed like hell.
>>> i just noticed my parents had been married for the past 41 years. wow! they're very adorable sometimes, annoying all d times. tehehehhee.
>>> im having the urge to approach one lady. wohoo! but i chicken out (booo shafiq). y? not enough courage. tehehhe.

enough blabbering. happy coming monday!

blased.

it was angry? it was happy? did dat actually pointed to muah?

i dont get u.

in life we trust, on earth we smile, by heart we speak.

hopefully u wont fake wutever advice u gave me.

ps: catching flies hovering round fb. no good. self-controL? better not to visit u again perhaps. cleaning up the plate for somebody? not really.

-wut am i saying? no double-meaning, just wuts on my mind-

update

dis week was totally exhausting. had to made my way back n forth ampang-cyber, for medical checkup + classes.
not to mention, endless assignments. gosh.

at the end of the week, n today is sunday morning, i looked at myself in the mirror (dh lama tak tgk lama2 sebab sakit hati buruk aje pon btw, usually nk betulkan rambut je), fugly! breakout! adei.sumpah buruk.

n down goes my mood. haish, dat simple huh? lame.

nevermind. then went on checking some sites ive been longing for, wishing for some luck. aideh! no luck bebeh. sometimes i think how on earth some peeps can have d luck? sheesh jangan mengeluh shafiq!

the question remains... why? y jerawat y? after 9 years u've invaded my face, u still cant finish ur task? tsktsk.... =) *tongue in cheek!*

muhasabah diri sat. i read sumwhere dat luck comes to peeps who can spot opportunity. guess dat i still need to fine-tune my opportunity-spotting!

owh wait, i did spot on opportunity. i managed to buy ______. come again? hehe. alhamdulillah. guess dat i didnt wait dat long huh?

mayb i will win a windfall. i win RM1,0oo,ooo, no, RM10,000, no, just RM1,000 will do! wehee. that is sure luck! ^^

but then again, dats not hard work. not so sweet, ayte?

ps: blabbering. i need to get out of my stress, my worry over assignments, graduation, potential job. sigh. these are all energy-sapping, indeed.

takjubnya...

takjubnya...

bila lihat sesetengah insan punyai drive, never runs out of energy to do something they're passionate about.

takjubnya...

bila insan2 ini dihargai; feels like u want to be just like them.

tetapi...

i always whine, lethargic and feel dat im under appreciated. but then something slap me across my face, telling me that there are people out there who appreciate me. even if im down, doesnt mean im not loved.
may i borrow these amazing people's energy & use it to catch my dream?
wait, do i have a dream? materialistic wise yes, but fullfilling ones?
in いたざうら　な　kiss, the lead actress points out something intruging:
"u will find your dream someday. but till then, just keep on walking"
so i will keep on walking. ^^

tinggal 3 minggu untuk peperiksaan terakhir.

tidak lama sahaja lagi, kami akan berjalan di arah yg sama dengan insan2 ini. ^^

tottering~

current song : jaejoong & yoochun - melody and harmony~

current mood : hepi but majorly lonely

feels slighly giddy but still in calm mode.

today, presentation went smoothly. alhamdulillah. but apparently two of the group members didnt even bother to attend. one of them blamed me for not telling her. FUCK YOU to say dat i didnt tell u. i told u, in ur face on monday. bloody hell. *kalau dh kebayan di waktu umur anda baru mencecah 22, silalah makan kismis bebanyak trimas*

we all made mistakes b4 dis, yes i know, but somehow i cant help but not feeling a slight pity for u. "sorry shafiq~" on and on the crap.

the next minute, u'll be ignoring me anyway. hurm im trying to act cool by not giving a damn but in my heart i feel like seriously smacking dat girl's head.

one reason for not doing dat? im trying to b as positive as i can dis sem. plus, it's done anyway. ^^.

dody told me she had a hella tonnes of assignments. seriously i pity u D. now dis is d type of situation where my concern is important, not to the case of the girl above. *bitter*.

hurm. FCMers really have a lot of things to do huh? *bersyukur*

DODY! AJA AJA HWAITING! shafiq sokong dari belakang!

yesterday, i asked, properly, to my parents (mum n dad included) about having a camera.

mind u, im not asking DSLR or something. hehehehe. dats all.... not really up to my expertise? im a noob really =)

verdict? REJECTED. point blank. "dh bagi itu ini kereta betul blablabla". dun bother telling bcuz i feel dat u have d idea of parents wit their excuses rite? hehehe.

feels sad really, but nahh... life goes on. as previous post said, "mungkin bukan sekarang, masa hadapan?" my brain helplessly hopes so.

i learn how to say no. =) so dat i wont lose anything, anymore. mayb not anymore, judging from my past experience hehe. sometimes u have to turn people down, bcuz people keep on turning u down w/o they noticing it. have it for ur own sake, pointed fatin on it.

ps: assignments dudes and dudettes, i'll have a date wit each and every one of u dis weekend ok?

khutbah jumaat

week 8 of 3rd trimester 09/10.

44 days left for first day of exam.

53 days left for the last day of exam.

as usual for every muslim man around, friday means friday prayer. normal. i must admit tho, i dont really listen to the two khutbahs (hehe), mostly bcuz my mind seems to wonder A LOT during d khutbahs. yesterday's khutbah was no exception.

i was practically wandering around within my mind, then suddenly the imam talked about dis.

"kita berdoa kepada Allah, mohon petunjuk hidayat dan pedoman dlm hidup. tak terkecuali kita minta pertolonganNya untuk sesuatu.......

.......Allah memberi balasan baik kepada manusia dalam tiga cara; ketika waktu kita memohon doa, atau pada masa kelak atau pada waktu akhirat. Allah tunda balasan baik kerana Allah tahu, bila waktu yang sesuai untuk kita menerimanya. sama juga untuk doa"

these words stuck like a cord really. while i was in the midst of wandering in my mind, these words sumhow stuck, and left big impression bcuz i was practically listening to every word khatib said. hurm... firstly, i must say d khatib-cum-imam definitely an accomplish poet! hehehe. his malay words seemed so flawless. kekekeke.

hehe. ok ok. but i think d reason these words stuck kinda hard bcuz of the things happening around me. i asked a lot in life; doa in another word. it sumhow connects us, i guess. i did doa for certain things, material wise (duit n more duit), body wise (bile jerawat nk hilang hehe), life wise (i prayed dat d decision i made to change my major from science to business is a blessing in disguise), d right way (jalan yang benar)...all of these. sumhow, as a human being, i cant help feeling puzzled, y i didnt get dis n dat. y and y and y.

well, i guess d answer had been given during the khutbah. mayb i wont get it now, i will get it later in my life. or perhaps if it gonna do more harm than good, its better dat i dont get it, rite? i know eventually i'll WHINE non stop about it, y i cant get dis n dat, but yeah.. at least now i have d answer n HOPEFULLY! dis answer will stuck in my mind. owh yeah... i do hope dat all of the above do come true! =)

owh mental note as well... lepas nie cuba tak mengelamun dlm khutbah jumaat! but hey, i have d effort to come early ok. kekekeke...

i do have wishlist for 2010 tho. hopefully Allah grant these!

ps:-

-sorry for the preachy-post. hahaha. i dont intend to but just wanna remind myself. ^^ ignore d post if u dont feel like reading it.

-next week tentatively i'll have two quizzes, and a midterm test on friday. yes, y cant they have it all in one day huh? owh wait, THEY ARE! pffffftttttt...

-owh i shud count my blessings! im more at ease nowadays, compared to december last year. ^^

-umai pointed out dat my skin now is worse than matrix! aduii... eventho im more relax, apparently my skin is not.

-to a friend of mine who has been lying to me to get me do something dat i vehemently object of doing, i really hope dat one day u'll realise, d moment u have to lie to ur friends about ur business, u shud stop.

mid sem break

*M A L A S*

sekian. hehe.

so much fun, it has to end.

since last week, i've been travelling far n wide searching for things dat i want to buy. 1st; handphone. but i already scrapped dis plan, cuz i realised one thing>>> i dont even know wut hp i want to buy. (but ive finally saw d one i want to buy; SAMSUNG JET. HIDUP SAMSUNG! hey i shud get one from samsung cuz im promoting them. mr sam sung, can i have one plz?) ended up, not buying.

went back to rembau. not much of a hype, just met dear cousins, chitchat (bangah is using samsung omnia 2 omg omg! sedar diri sikit shafiq bleh tak?), & practically just having fun.

headed back home to ampang on sunday. total exhaustion. monday is barbeque day! i said i wanted one but i just said it out of playfullness, but alas mum granted it. balang barbequed d chicken to coal-arang-like (hehehe). n hell yeah 1 whole chicken went down to my stomach. guilt? dun mention it...

tuesday is outing day as well (kluar lagi berjalan ak tak sedar diri laa katakan). teman-ing D to register for Digi broadband + dinner. bill on her, hehe. thanks D. moga morah rezeki amin~ (info: Digi broadband only cost rm58/month for students. lowest rate possible in mesia).

today; wednesday. went out, AGAIN. masyaAllah. kinda feel guilty for everything (money, not spending time with parents, money again). but its been quite some time i havent catch up wif taufik. so yeah, huhu... lotsa catching up have been done, including his 'trip' to PD. tsktsk.. suka hati kau lah taufik.

so wuts d point of writing dis up? for me to ponder a moment; i've been spending too much time, too much money (really a lot man, i feel guilty), too much energy on having FUN. i shud end it. point blank.

2mrw i have to go back to my students' life. 9 weeks left. (X_X)

i found it!

finally...

after walking numerous miles (driving actually)...

spent money on some stuff (balas dendam actually)...

i found you! (sangat suka actually!) u're on bargain summore! thanks D for showing me d place. hehehehehe.

ps: it's just a pair of jeans. since i have no camera, cannot snap a pic of it. hehehe. on unrelated manner, biological n psychological needs should be addressed.

panas!

its been hella hot hot heat lately.

i went to kl to have a sightseeing + shopping + book hunting, turned up doing SIGHTSEEING only. it was so heaty i sweat like its raining.

the book is not available at kinokuniya, neither times as well. mmu bookstore? "we dont sell it bcuz nobody buys it". then y on earth laa d lecturer set the book to b our reference point dis sem? haishhh~ geram gak bersemangat ak pegi takde kan.

shopping? naah forget it. yesterday somehow opened my eyes. i dont even know y i want to buy another handphone in d 1st place. i need a wifi gadget, dats all. prolly i'll get myself one later. not now. pffttttt NAFSU SEMATA SHAFIQ (dats y panas kowt! hehe) back to today... somehow no mood to shop as well. haishhh~ d jeans i was looking for, is not around. perhaps i'll look around again after dis.

tomorrow i'll b back again in cyber lala boring. hopefully friday class will b cancelled, so dat i dont have to wake up in the morning! ^^

muhasabah diri

do u have regrets in ur life? i do.

i regret wut happened b4 dis, a year ago. yeah sure some quarter will say im right, some will say im wrong, but i still feel sorry for what had happened.

yeah, dats wut i regret d most.

10 weeks left n dis thing comes thru mind.

ps: rindu.

sleep

tido yg indah! hehe. now i know wut it feels to sleep like nobody's business..

ps: ade gak yg sibuk goncang2 ak suruh bangun. ahhh~! penat nk bangun lah! kui3.

lompat si katak lompat muahx2!

fuhhh... now we're starting to have numerous works. reading 4 journals requires 2 hours edi, writing one question requires another 2. *sah power spec daku naek nant*

next week there'll b a lot of replacement classes i think. gah 'cant wait' bluerkk~

and this friday we'll b having replacement class as well!: -
"we will be having class on kinyoubi (friday) 1.30pm to 3.30pm"

such a pain having friday class! its like hectic gile on fridays. but wut can i do? otto ka chi?
i'll b late to class anyway due to friday prayer. hehe.

ps: still kinda dissappointed wif wut happened on monday. haish, kena kenching kalu. =(

counting

tik tok.

12 weeks left. the feeling is surreal for sure.

im properly adjusting my mindset of school-has-already-begun.

stake is high, definitely. fuhh fahh. ^^

1st week of school!

summarising it in one word : BORING.

in 3 words : BORING NAK MAMPUS.

1st week was hella boring days, eventho it was as hectic as hell jugaklaa. monday was boring, bloody boring. went to neerjang's class, blablabla, then off to hostel.

wait, freaking hostel??? jyeahh... saya duk hostel sekarang. saying it out loud makes me squirm like those cacing2 yg menggelikan. ew~ nuff imagining.

due to some unforseen circumstances (i'll tell much much much laterrrrr, depends), i had to changed rooms. i felt a bit embarrassed really to change more than 3 times, but since ella said dat she did d same, heh..pe lagi. takde laa rasa malu. kemalu-maluan beta~ kui3.

so hopped into a room. roommates were nice; quiet one named Luqman & talkative one named Afiq. first impression? nothing. cuz i just keep on laughing. kui3.

as i get to know them, wah.. skali budak usrah beb. deym. no more cursing in d room. kui3. kidding. but not really. =P

one thing tho dat irritate me a little; they seem so free! deym! jeles ak. i was like practically waking up early in d morning,preparing for morning bloody morning classes, they were relaxing. deym. when i asked why, they said bcuz their classes usually start in d afternoon. how cool is dat??? heh. jeles kejap. tapi tak mengapa.

tuesday was boring as well. so i made chow back to ampang wif ella. hehe. talk about being bored to death. wednesday came d disaster. owh mem geee.... who on earth settled d timetable like dis??? 4-7pm, then 8-10pm??? effin' annoyed laa wei. i think those who settled dis timetable faced dis ordeal b4, then got the revenge on us. tsktsk... wednesday = hell.

thursday. omg. omg. neerjang again. HELLO NEERJANG. how are u? hopefully he can be fair in d class. again, blablabla. then takde kelas. how 'cool' is dat? basically...my classes dis sem mostly start early in the freaking morning, except for wednesday where classes start LATE in the evening. talk about being extreme to the core for both times. extreme morning, extreme evening.

frankly, its a challenge for me to go to morning class. but somehow hostel kinda rock dat challenge, bcuz basically i'll automatically woke up at 6am. even if i go to bed at 2am. y? well... for starter, d alarm rings like hell every 6am. 2nd reason>>> d alarm of other rooms FOLLOW SUIT after dat. gempa bumi much? not exactly.

so today i slept at 12am (yeh yeh), woke up at 6am. wait scratched dat. moved my arse at 7am. yeah baru betul. :P

now boring balik. one class of straight 3 hours for today (tuesday). heh. saya pulang ke gagang lah kejap lagi!

sekian~

ps: i need to brush up my language. haishhh~ buruk sudah. [edited]

alhamdulillah.

setelah berminggu tido tak lena, mandi tak basah, makan sentiasa kenyang tho...



the result was out dis morning.



verdict?



i scored. alhamdulillah! hehe. pastu gembira plak ella dapat result MELETOPPP kan. hehehe, jeles gue hihi! tapi tumpang gembira. cayalah Ell! owh not forgetting tumpang kenyang gak! (itu paling penting actually wakakakka!) hahahahahhahahahahahahaha!. trimas naa for the mee goreng mamak tambah ayam. kui3. pasni score lagi laa ella, pastu blanja i makan chilis plak. kepingin!



only now i have d courage to say dis:



"im now in my final sem of my final year wif my final coursemates & frankly, d stake is high from now on! viva la vida~"



alhamdulillah...i'll pay my nazar mayb on dis week itself. =)

berhenti boleh?

please stop.

i seriously freakingly annoyingly CANNOT feel ur honesty.

u just spell DISASTER by asking for it, bringing it up too much.

u know wut i think about u? somebody who doesnt have dat much DRIVE to succeed in life, who rides on others' backs to achieve your so-called dreams.

bottom line is, u are frigging LAZY.

STOP asking for my forgiveness, cuz i've DONE it. STOP asking me to forget, cuz i WONT & CANT do it.

so just stop. just when i thought d holiday can get better, u just keep on fueling it to b worse than ever.

frankly, u're desperate. yeah, continue putting ur clean front, but ur back is dirtier than a swagger.

HYPOCRITES, persetan sama kau. [pinjam ayat dody sat]

ps: holiday is d time where we spend d days wif family, not wif U HYPROCITE MORONIC CREATURES. so STOP harrassing me during holidays will u? less than a week u'll be seeing me again anyway, cant u wait for it?