tottering~

current song : jaejoong & yoochun - melody and harmony~

current mood : hepi but majorly lonely

feels slighly giddy but still in calm mode.

today, presentation went smoothly. alhamdulillah. but apparently two of the group members didnt even bother to attend. one of them blamed me for not telling her. FUCK YOU to say dat i didnt tell u. i told u, in ur face on monday. bloody hell. *kalau dh kebayan di waktu umur anda baru mencecah 22, silalah makan kismis bebanyak trimas*

we all made mistakes b4 dis, yes i know, but somehow i cant help but not feeling a slight pity for u. "sorry shafiq~" on and on the crap.

the next minute, u'll be ignoring me anyway. hurm im trying to act cool by not giving a damn but in my heart i feel like seriously smacking dat girl's head.

one reason for not doing dat? im trying to b as positive as i can dis sem. plus, it's done anyway. ^^.

dody told me she had a hella tonnes of assignments. seriously i pity u D. now dis is d type of situation where my concern is important, not to the case of the girl above. *bitter*.

hurm. FCMers really have a lot of things to do huh? *bersyukur*

DODY! AJA AJA HWAITING! shafiq sokong dari belakang!

yesterday, i asked, properly, to my parents (mum n dad included) about having a camera.

mind u, im not asking DSLR or something. hehehehe. dats all.... not really up to my expertise? im a noob really =)

verdict? REJECTED. point blank. "dh bagi itu ini kereta betul blablabla". dun bother telling bcuz i feel dat u have d idea of parents wit their excuses rite? hehehe.

feels sad really, but nahh... life goes on. as previous post said, "mungkin bukan sekarang, masa hadapan?" my brain helplessly hopes so.

i learn how to say no. =) so dat i wont lose anything, anymore. mayb not anymore, judging from my past experience hehe. sometimes u have to turn people down, bcuz people keep on turning u down w/o they noticing it. have it for ur own sake, pointed fatin on it.

ps: assignments dudes and dudettes, i'll have a date wit each and every one of u dis weekend ok?

khutbah jumaat

week 8 of 3rd trimester 09/10.

44 days left for first day of exam.

53 days left for the last day of exam.

as usual for every muslim man around, friday means friday prayer. normal. i must admit tho, i dont really listen to the two khutbahs (hehe), mostly bcuz my mind seems to wonder A LOT during d khutbahs. yesterday's khutbah was no exception.

i was practically wandering around within my mind, then suddenly the imam talked about dis.

"kita berdoa kepada Allah, mohon petunjuk hidayat dan pedoman dlm hidup. tak terkecuali kita minta pertolonganNya untuk sesuatu.......

.......Allah memberi balasan baik kepada manusia dalam tiga cara; ketika waktu kita memohon doa, atau pada masa kelak atau pada waktu akhirat. Allah tunda balasan baik kerana Allah tahu, bila waktu yang sesuai untuk kita menerimanya. sama juga untuk doa"

these words stuck like a cord really. while i was in the midst of wandering in my mind, these words sumhow stuck, and left big impression bcuz i was practically listening to every word khatib said. hurm... firstly, i must say d khatib-cum-imam definitely an accomplish poet! hehehe. his malay words seemed so flawless. kekekeke.

hehe. ok ok. but i think d reason these words stuck kinda hard bcuz of the things happening around me. i asked a lot in life; doa in another word. it sumhow connects us, i guess. i did doa for certain things, material wise (duit n more duit), body wise (bile jerawat nk hilang hehe), life wise (i prayed dat d decision i made to change my major from science to business is a blessing in disguise), d right way (jalan yang benar)...all of these. sumhow, as a human being, i cant help feeling puzzled, y i didnt get dis n dat. y and y and y.

well, i guess d answer had been given during the khutbah. mayb i wont get it now, i will get it later in my life. or perhaps if it gonna do more harm than good, its better dat i dont get it, rite? i know eventually i'll WHINE non stop about it, y i cant get dis n dat, but yeah.. at least now i have d answer n HOPEFULLY! dis answer will stuck in my mind. owh yeah... i do hope dat all of the above do come true! =)

owh mental note as well... lepas nie cuba tak mengelamun dlm khutbah jumaat! but hey, i have d effort to come early ok. kekekeke...

i do have wishlist for 2010 tho. hopefully Allah grant these!

ps:-

-sorry for the preachy-post. hahaha. i dont intend to but just wanna remind myself. ^^ ignore d post if u dont feel like reading it.

-next week tentatively i'll have two quizzes, and a midterm test on friday. yes, y cant they have it all in one day huh? owh wait, THEY ARE! pffffftttttt...

-owh i shud count my blessings! im more at ease nowadays, compared to december last year. ^^

-umai pointed out dat my skin now is worse than matrix! aduii... eventho im more relax, apparently my skin is not.

-to a friend of mine who has been lying to me to get me do something dat i vehemently object of doing, i really hope dat one day u'll realise, d moment u have to lie to ur friends about ur business, u shud stop.

mid sem break

*M A L A S*

sekian. hehe.